back to your roots.

Not hair roots, your family roots. :) Where you grew up, where you made all the memories that you'll think about often as you grow older. At least I do, especially when I go back to visit.
And so that brings me to the question... who the hell am I in Montana?! I don't know. Two years after moving here, I'm still wondering why I did it. I suppose if my relationship circumstances were better, I would say, I did it for love and I've never regretted it. But I've never felt that way. I regret it, a lot.
The thing is... I'm not quite sure how to get myself out of this moving to Montana pickle yet... Said husband stated he would not over out of Montana under any circumstances. I could go alone, but thats against the laws of the Catholic Church. I guess I could be married and live in a different state than my spouse.
I like the amenities of a "city" or large town. You can get whatever you need that day. You don't have to a make a list for our big shopping trip to another town.
And I have thought about moving to a smaller town in Montana, but that means lower wages and still not close enough to my family. Oh, and small town gossip! How could I forget.
I'm just so lost... I just know that something needs to change and I think that so many factors are playing a part in my hating this life right now... lack of close friends, inlaws, marriage blahs, unhappy at job....
I guess I should just pray about it, but I'm so lacking in the patience department.

obession hits

have you ever been addicted to a song? well i get that way all the time. thank goodness for youtube, I can listen to my new fav song over and over and OVER at work.

when it hits you

Its so odd to finally find something that understands my love of knittin' and craftin'. Stephanie Pearl-McPhee Casts Off. I totally ran across this today by mistake at the library. I always like to check out the new non-fiction, because I'm a lover of shiny and new :o) And there it was !!!
I was really excited because the library in town has a less than exciting selection of books pertaining to my interests.
I'm on page 23 and its like YES! you get me!!! You understand why I knit, why I love it so much, and why I can't sit in front of the tv without my hands itching to knit. I don't understand it, but its part of me now.
Its soooooooo awesome. I can't wait to read more more more. Too bad Chad isn't going to ND with me on Thursday, he could drive and I could read. I probably shouldn't attempt to read + drive. That might be disasterous. :o)
I have two books on CD for the ride, the guy not taken and goodnight nobody. both by jennifer weiner who wrote good in bed and WOW i loved that. i love chick lit-jane green, marian keyes, sophie kinsella, jennifer weiner! i read a lot more before i started knitting though... hard to turn pages with needles in your hands.
im headin to NoDak land to use up some vacation days because god knows i'm not going to let those go un-used! and do some serious craftin. i have the craft fair in a few weeks and big plans to get things done. i hope it works out and i dont go on strike just sitting on my bum doing nothing. i need to get all my yarn and books packed up tonight... well maybe, its already 830 and i really havent done much tonight, but oh well, you need that sometimes. i hate feeling like i always have a big list of crap i need to get done, and when i do, i just rebel and get NONE of it done. ha!

we celebrated our 1 year anniversary on sunday, but I'll do a seperate post for that since it was such a SPECIAL occassion. :o) I guess the one year mark probably means i could get some wedding pictures printed... wooooah slacker!

~a