the world lost a great man yesterday.

Yesterday, the world lost a very good man. A very kind, patient, loving man. One that you don't come across very often. He was a man that would always take the time to say hello in the morning, strike up a conversation about the current events going on in your life, take time out of his busy day to explain your question, and take an interest in you and your life. With all that, he knew he cares and you knew that you mattered to him.
He was a bit of a grandfather figure to me, as I had lost my grandfather when I was a junior in high school.
I replay the events from yesterday over and over and over in my head and I still, really, don't believe it happened. It was so sudden, so final. It happened in our office, his secretary found him at 8:06 am slumped over in the chair. He wasn't breathing, his hands were already cold, and he had lost color. She called 911, I tried to help get a pulse, ran to find someone who knew CPR. No one did, lesson learned, I think our office will keep up on our CPR lessons. The ambulance arrived, they were in his office for over 20 minutes trying to revive him, shortly after a woman EMT or paramedic came out to inform us they had tried everything, pushed two different meds, but he was gone. I prayed hail marys and our fathers the entire time, I just felt like in a time of panic and need, you need to pray. And although that didn't bring him back to life, maybe it helped him or his family or his wife, as he was making his journey to heaven with Jesus. I hope so. I've been praying the entire day that Jesus will open his arms for Jim and let him into his kingdom. He was a good man, I have no doubt that he is in heaven looking down.
The funeral is Monday. I'm going into work for a little while today but I'm scared to go to our office... It was a traumatic experience to go through really.... Seeing someone die leaves that memory with you, for a long time I am sure. Death is sometimes hard to accept so I'm just trying to go along with my every day. I will always remember Jim and he will always hold such a special place in my heart.
After someone dies, it stings and it hurts. Sometimes you think, well I shouldn't take people for granted, and no you really shouldn't, but you get so caught up in daily life and your own things that sometimes you lose sight of other things in life. Then you wonder if you should let people in, if you should have children, because someday you will utlimately lose those people from your life. But, I do believe that its important to love everyone the best way you can. And do everything good in your life that is possible because life is such a fragile thing and it can be taken away at any time.
Rest in peace Jim, you are dearly love and will be greatly missed every day at work. I hold a special place in my heart for you and will continue to admire and look up to your loving and caring ways throughout your life.
-A